I spent 2 hours cooking a meal and a desert for my nan because she always picks something out for me to cook on a wednesday (i have no choice in the matter). Today I cooked a steak and kidney pie, mashed potatoes and vegetables and some kind of fancy bread and butter pudding. She came round, ate hardly any of the meal then when she went to eat the pudding she was really critical saying 'you have used too much milk, did you put in the amount it said?' Why would I NOT put what the recipie said?! I worked my ass off, i had to scrub the floor and clean up some glass because dad knocked off a glass of squash and I had to listen to my nan slag off my cooking when she is a shit cook tbf.

For new years I have to go to some shitty farm somewhere because my parents friends are coming over from barbados so I wont know anyone. I hate being in those situations.

Also. Guys are twat, apart from the ones I cant have.

Also. I've gained a stupid amount of weight in such little time and I cannot get back my will power because I am now prone to binging because I feel like shit. It's stupidly getting me down.

Also, people cancel on me and it fucks me off. Its like people cant be bothered with me anymore.

Also, I am realllly behind in art and its fucking me off. I feel like I can't do it anymore. It's so much work.

ARRRG. Im so pissed off at stuff atm. God I sound so selfish.